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I'm all written out. I've been replying contantly to people and I am just so tired of it. I took a day away from gaia just to avoiding having to reply. Usually I enjoy talking to people, but not this often. ANd if any of those folks happen to see this: I don't hate any of you, I just get tired of talking (typing) sometimes. I can't keep it up over a long period and if I try to do so, I get burnt out eventually. Seeing a reply to a post I made on that religous thread now makes me groan out loud and I almost want to beat my head against a wall. I am compelled to reply though for some stupid reason. ugg......

So, yesterday the Jahovah people came back. This time the guy who spoke most last time brought his daughter. She has an interrest in doing 3D stuff like for movies or games or something and she wanted to know how to start doing it. I told her about the programs I use for it so she can try it out. Still learning and being self taught, I can't really do more than that. She seemed happy to get those though. Good luck to her. Other than that, we talked more about the bible, I asked more questioins and he answered. I found it rather nice that he didn't get frustrated with the questions. Many times when I ask questions people get mad or frustrated because they just don't have answers, or can't get me to understand. I will admit that I sometimes do the same, though I usually try to hide it so I don't appear to be rude. It was nice to meet religious people who don't do that. Hell, the dude even seemed to like that I asked questions and that I took a moment to think about what I was going to say before I said it. The thinking bit isn't quite acurate as I like to take a second to process the information given to me before I reply. Similair to how it is on the internet. Read, process informaiton, reply. Its why I like the internet: I don't have to reply imediately (though I always feel like I should).

After the conversation with the Jahovah's witnesses and I went back inside, I played a boring little simulaiton game and something popped into my head: should I fake believing what they believe so i can be a part of a comunity? Morally I would say no, because I do not like lieing. However, one look at the title of this journal would show why i'd consider saying yes. I haven't had friends offline for many years. Sure, I know people (all of them through my room mate), but I do not consider them friends. Friends are people one can talk to on a personal level and not have them spread that stuff around or judging you for it. The last person I would consider a friend would have been in middle school. Middle school was a long time ago (early 2000's for me). Due to their beliefs I would not consider people I met though the Jahovah's witnesses group on the highest level of friendship and I would probably keep things from them. No different than I do with my room mate. It is getting old to have to hide sh*t though. As an alternitive, I thought I'd look up Athiest groups in my area and I came up with nothing. neutral What do I do from this point?

On a brighter note (I guess), I finished Flower. I liked it very much and I will probably play though some of the levels again soon. I also finished flOw, it was okay, I guess. Nothing really over the top special, but I loved how they did the credits. And, I have decided to start the first god of war game over again. I got to a point where I screwed up and couldn't fix it and as much as I hate to do so, it is my only option.

Thats all folks........