lol its been a while since ive been signed in as this lady.
ugh ive just felt super drained having no support or input.
ive neglected this little being so long she seems to be sassing me from under her veil.
ugh I hate hateful anthropomorphisized...
sorry if we run into eachother and I seem needy.
when I first became a part of gaia I thought id have a bf all the time
im pretty sexiest, and get
severly offended by people that don't know how to act around me.
I have distance rules.
yeah I tried to be popular by having sex when I was in my teens
but now I just find humans and organs and people
disgusting and disturbing
im kindof obsessed with dragons and filling knowledge gaps right now
I was raised around strange things
and I suffer from night terrors and ptsd often
sorry if I ask anyone a question of what they fear and things
it helps me settle into reality... I just feel
under human or not human as much as what I see demonstrated
I live to not die instead of dying to live... I don't know...
I pity edgar allan poe, it almost seems as if he failed his goals
I love him and when I create time travel im sure Ill go visit him in eternity just to make sure he's okay with things...
guess I need lots of things to prepare if im going to have a lot of dependents and things...
hotels, spas, schools, swimming, entertainment, nourishment, good health,
lots of things are needed to sustain happy livelihood
I expect to provide for many in my eternity
I just feel so negligent and neglected
Im severly angry at women and homes and moms
they think they're so good
and then they die or theres an accident
im really mad at people who spank and get angry when accidents happen
when it was them not paying attention that led to the mistake
I know im no where near perfect or capable yet
but at least I can look above the influence
teach better imbecils
lol so I didn't make any money that time I wanted to make billions in a few days
I also didn't make it to the show utopia
I hopes its not offensive and naughty or over icky
im still watching to see if anyone brings my ingredient (smell of fresh paint)
(or card board boxes)
in this journals comments I intend to have a recipe for the Tupperware flowers I made at an event in my home town once