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Never do i want to, but im afraid because i know it might come. Gone are the days of happiness and joy, now i sit all alone thinking of what must be done. They don't need me, nor do they want me. And worse my subconscious always wants to haunt me. These feelings, this pain always loves to taunt me. Now i'm walking out the door nonchalantly. Because i've lost all touch, i've lost all feeling. All i feel is pain and the longing for healing. I've lost my meaning, i've lost my smile. And it's not coming back, no not for a while.

I'm lost, can't be found, though my living corps walks through this town. I'm a dead man walking, trying to find the life. But it left a long time ago, and hours ago I started to build myself back up again. And then they came back, and acted like friends. But really all they did was put me to an end. Cuz I can see through lies, therefor I’ve abandoned all emotions. This way I won’t be pushed by any motions. I’m now a stronghold that holds nothing but pain. I’m weak, but immovable; I never fail but never gain. I’m lost. And fear that death is near, I’ve tasted it already. But sadly it only taunts, thinking I am not yet ready. It flaunts, it haunts, but I pay no regards. Because if this is what life feels like than it can’t be that hard.

Please find me before it’s to late. These thought and feelings are consuming me. I’m already in the dark, but I can still see. Please find me before I become blind.

Maybe one day I’ll find you, and you’ll find me. But until that day I’ll spend eternity, living without life and feeling nothing. Longing to feel something, like love or anything above, what I feel now. Cuz I don’t know other than pain, and hiding all my shame. Then getting lost in sorrows and never feeling the same. I abide in
hate, dream for love. I look for peace, and find dead doves. I consume what consumes me.

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    Mon Jun 24, 2013 @ 06:34pm

    i love you..

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