Found Poem

To my unborn child
The silence over took me like cancer
What a simple word to say, what a profound word to lose
Nobody would choose to be like this
The meaning of my thoughts started to float away from me
Like leaves that fall from a tree into a river
I was the tree, the world was the river
What can I say it hasn’t made life wonderful, it’s made life possible
Does it break my heart, of course?
Every moment of everyday
Into more pieces than my heart was made of
The distance that wedged itself between me and my happiness
Wasn’t the world
I wanted to pull the thread
Unravel the scarf of my silence
And start again from the beginning
I started carrying blank books like this one around
Which I would fill with all the things I couldn’t say
At the end of each day
I would take the book to bed with me
And read through the pages of my life