None of us are ready to see you go.
Not a single one of us will be the same without you.
I started an origami project for you yesterday.
I don't know if you'll get to see it before you go.
I made a little box.
With a heart on it.
With your name on it.
And in it are what seems like a hundred little hearts.
On each heart is something I love about you.
Something that describes you.
Something who makes you someone I've looked up to my whole life.
HOLD ON, DAMN IT~!
You have a husband who is completely lost without you.
You have kids that still need your guidance.
You have grandkids who haven't had enough time with you yet.
You have great grandkids who you haven't met yet.
Stay, damn it. STAY!
I owe you the origami bear.
I haven't quite gotten good enough to make it yet.
You can't go yet.
You can't go without your bear.
Sarah and I are going to get married someday.
You should be there.
I want you there.
Physically occupying a chair.
Selfish of me, yes.
But I'll be damned if I don't have the three most important people to me there on my side.
You, grampa, and my mom.
That's all I want.
I know it's going to win out someday.
I know death will claim you sooner or later.
I know each day is a gift.
I don't want to be in a world without you.
It scares me.
Makes me angry.
It's just not fair.
It's not fair that you have to suffer.
It's not fair that you got this in the first place.
Just a little while longer?
Ten, maybe fifteen more years?
· Thu Jun 20, 2013 @ 07:54pm · 0 Comments