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I've changed so much over the past years. Whether the change has been for the better or for the worst is a matter of personal opinion. In my opinion it's been both. I have matured more over the years, which is great. But I've also grown to hate myself. Every inch of my body. I see myself as fat, gross, not good enough. I've starved myself, cut myself, tried to overdose. And all of those things have been changes in the wrong direction.
What changed in my life that made me suddenly hate myself so much? Yeah, I've always been embarrassed about my weight. But to suddenly start starving myself? To make my life suddenly revolve around exercise. When did all of that happen? When did I change so drastically?
What makes a person truly hate themselves so much that they would punish them-self by cutting open their own skin?