NOTE: Im going to blog at my own free will. What I mean is Im not gonna post everyday. Just sayin'.
On with the blog! Lately Ive been in a ''depressed mode". I haven't wanted to get up, I haven't wanted to eat, leave the house, do something fun. Nothing. The only thing really holding me together is the part of me that is trying to figure out why Im in this mode.
At the moment Im failing terribly! Im being anti-social. Ive basically been avoiding everyone except Brittany ( I think Ive mentioned her, she is my best friend) and Bob.
Speaking of Bob we were talking the other day and he told me a little story, which gave me a laugh, but it also got me thinking. Anyway here's the story (the short version, that isn't word for word):
"So I was talking to Briana and then I had to go so I told her I was busy. A little while later you called so I started talking to you. I told her about this and she got kinda mad about it. She was mad because I was talking to you when I said I was busy,"
That's basically what he said...I don't know why, but I felt kind of happy.
God how I hate myself right now...But if you ever see this...Your amazing, I love you. And I hope someday, you'll forgive me for my mistakes.