It has been almost a month since my training as a nurse ended; and I would say, I miss those past six months of my life. It has taught me so much and it made me experience things I never thought I would encounter.
It was really worth it.
Right now, while waiting for a call for an advanced training for another three months, I decided to take a short vacation - something I did for my own sake. I chose to stay over my relative's cove here in Manila to breathe new air and see new things; but, in between pauses, when I have nothing to do, I'm still anxious and worrying about things regarding what I would be, or what I wanted to do, in the future.
Yes, I wanted to be a nurse - that's my chosen career path that I would never ever regret. But lately, I don't actually know if I'm still going to get that phone call or am I just waiting for something that is never coming?
I don't know. I can't tell either; but, when I pray, everything feels better and everything would feel alright.
I think, it's just normal for me to feel this way. I'm 21 years old and I graduated last year, passed the nursing board exam, did advanced trainings and hospital training. I did everything in a continuous matter to expand what I know.. to expand what I could do.. and it's all a preparation to me.
Sometimes, I would hear someone say, "she's too young. She shouldn't be worrying about that too much." But, I am. I have to move on to the next phase of my life, which is finding a job - a decent job - and no, I don't want to work for money alone. I want to work where my passion is too.
I just want to do things where I would be happy.
And in addition to this, I wanted to help my parents too (most especially). I don't want to reach the age of 25 and still worrying about the same thing.. stuck in the same phase. I just can't imagine my life like that because, I know my parents won't want that for me. My aunt and uncle wouldn't want that either. Actually, they're helping me out in a best way that they could do; and if there's just something I could do to help them out in return, I would.. I really would.
And I know, I just have to help myself out too but, I just don't know what I would do. //sigh.
It was really worth it.
Right now, while waiting for a call for an advanced training for another three months, I decided to take a short vacation - something I did for my own sake. I chose to stay over my relative's cove here in Manila to breathe new air and see new things; but, in between pauses, when I have nothing to do, I'm still anxious and worrying about things regarding what I would be, or what I wanted to do, in the future.
Yes, I wanted to be a nurse - that's my chosen career path that I would never ever regret. But lately, I don't actually know if I'm still going to get that phone call or am I just waiting for something that is never coming?
I don't know. I can't tell either; but, when I pray, everything feels better and everything would feel alright.
I think, it's just normal for me to feel this way. I'm 21 years old and I graduated last year, passed the nursing board exam, did advanced trainings and hospital training. I did everything in a continuous matter to expand what I know.. to expand what I could do.. and it's all a preparation to me.
Sometimes, I would hear someone say, "she's too young. She shouldn't be worrying about that too much." But, I am. I have to move on to the next phase of my life, which is finding a job - a decent job - and no, I don't want to work for money alone. I want to work where my passion is too.
I just want to do things where I would be happy.
And in addition to this, I wanted to help my parents too (most especially). I don't want to reach the age of 25 and still worrying about the same thing.. stuck in the same phase. I just can't imagine my life like that because, I know my parents won't want that for me. My aunt and uncle wouldn't want that either. Actually, they're helping me out in a best way that they could do; and if there's just something I could do to help them out in return, I would.. I really would.
And I know, I just have to help myself out too but, I just don't know what I would do. //sigh.
