September 1999, i entered public school. On june 18th, 2013... i will be graduating. 4 years of high school... 13 years of public school.
Feels like this... lol.
All the laughs, tears, bullying that i have done (which i am sorry for), bullying that has been done to me, the gossip, fights, drama, pointless trivial problems and pursuits, the boys, the girls, the abusive teachers, the amazing teachers, the parental problems, the good times, recess, skipping, days off, school lunches, confusion, puberty, the learning, the forgetting what i learned, the struggling to pass a test or class, the triumphs, and short-lived down-falls, the snow days, afterschool activities, sports, theater, standardized tests, discipline, dress code, phases, hope, support, faith, optimism, positivity, friends, and love... It's all come down to this.
You know, i've hated school the entire time of my public education. And i sure don't want to go through it all again. But geez, i would NOT be the same.. at ALL.. if i never went to school all my life.
It was a unique experience... I guess.
So what's going on now with me..
Well, i think i'm losing weight. WOOP WOOP! I may not be, but i love my body all of a sudden. I may have bad days.. bad times... but at the end of the day i look at myself in the mirror and im like WHO'S THAT. I don't think that's arrogant...
I've been meeting a lot of new people... I found a really, really good friend. Somebody i think is going to stick around.. for a lot more then a while. They struggle.. we struggled.. but friendship prevails.
A lot of my friends i've suddenly disconnected from.. but it's truly no biggie.
Things with the family get intense... but then it all cools down and everythings okay...
I'm not so shallow anymore... i used to be all about vanity, gossip, and stupid boy problems. There is much more to life then that.... I'm glad i've discovered it. Things i used to freak out about for days... don't bother me anymore. Thank God.
Setting my course for community college! I'm in a program where i can transfer after 2 years... God willing, it'll go swimmingly.It's almost like a second chance.... I really ******** up in high school. If I do well there, high school grades won't matter as much. I may not get the fancy dorm experience... but gee, at least i get some kind of education eh?! :dolike:
I did well on my theater assessments, i gave a 25 minute oral presentation of greek theater, sound design, and theater of the cruelty... wrote a more than 20 page paper.. then wrote a 7 page research paper... then wrote a 30+ page performance proposal. I'm not going to pursue theater.. but it's something in my heart... i look forward to enjoying it more.
I'm still breathing.. i have a roof over my head... foood in my mouth... clothes to wear... for now. Thank God.
that's all i can think of in a nutshell.
I'm glad. I love everybody... Right at this moment, as i write this journal entry.. i feel at peace, i feel alright. I don't know what the future holds, all i know is that no matter what i go through... as long as God is on my side, i'll be okay.
An ending... but a beginning.
The rest is still....
Peace & blessings... love and soul power! May the grace of our lord Jesus Christ be with you all. Soli deo gloria!
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