Here we go again. Here we freakin go again.
I got into 2 fights with my "friends" in one day over the phone. Both were my fault. So what if I don't want to sleep over? So what if I go home early or don't want to go anywhere? First they leave me out and don't invite me to go anywhere, and then I GET BLAMED FOR IT. The other spams me with calls saying it's "urgent," and she refuses to text me so when I finally pick up she wants my help on a video game. Well, I hate talking over the phone because it's uncomfortable and I'm SOCIALLY CHALLENGED. So she gets mad at ME the moment there's an awkward silence and hangs up. And then my mom sounds like she blames me too, and my brother has to chip in and call me moody. There I go. Crying again. I can't do this anymore. I feel so disconnected from them... Are they really my friends? Because it doesn't feel like it.
This part is for my other 2 friends, you know who you are. And unfortunately, I admit, I really took you two for granted. I really did. And now I regret every moment I didn't hang out with you guys. Jesus Christ,you have no idea how much Imiss you both. You're the only 2 who don't judge me, you always mad me feel better, and I would do anything for you guys. I can't even vent to my other friends, let alone cry in front of them. Please help me, I really need you two. I can't express any other way, I need you guys....
· Thu Jun 13, 2013 @ 01:20am · 2 Comments