Okay. Truth is, I ******** up. Badly this time. Worse than any other time. I honestly wish I could go back in time and change what happened. I always make the wrong decision. I chose a guy over my best friend who cared so much about me. She didn't think the guy was worth being my boyfriend so she tried splitting us up. I thought me and Conner would last long. I guess not. She was so right, Maranda DePalo, I wish we were friends again. I'll never make the same mistake again, I promise, I'll try! Conner was a d**k, and he honestly didn't care about me at all. He thought I was a toy, but I showed that guy off. Next time someone does this to my heart, I will have no mercy. I WILL kick their a** because they played with my heart. You play with my feelings, I play with your body. Really, I will beat the s**t out of you if you think I'm joking. I'm serious. I've ******** up many times before. But it never hurt as much as this time. I've made up with Maranda, we aren't friends though. She doesn't forgive me, and I don't blame her. I just want to say; I love you Maranda, you were the greatest friend I've had. We spent 12 years together not giving a s**t about anything. This is the first year without you. Me and Maranda met when we were born. My mom was friends with her mom. They gave birth in the same hospital, though not the same day. Even though you're only a few months older than me, you're so much wiser than me. I am so sorry you had to deal with this s**t. I'm so sorry you had to spend 12 years with someone you don't trust anymore. I am so sorry for what I have done I hope one day you will forgive me and we can be friends. I know that probably wont happen, but I still pray everyday for forgiveness. You do not need to forgive me, I know its hard to forgive someone. You made me laugh, you made me cry, you let me have so many feelings. All I can really do is avoid you. If I see you, I will cry. If someone talks about you, I will cry. I will rant. I will beat the s**t out of someone if they talk s**t about you. I really will. I love you, Maranda. I miss you
M I F F I C E · Mon Jun 03, 2013 @ 12:49am · 0 Comments |