You know for the longest time I have struggled with people. You know people who tell me not to die. They try to dive deep into my mind, they always ask for a reason for me to die. The funny thing is that none of them would actually ever say that I am allowed to die. After all, if people were allowed to die then attempted suicide would not be a crime and assisted suicide would be legal. However the problem is that it is illegal to die in our society. Well you know dying of natural causes is one thing, but knowingly ending your life is another thing.
So today I realized something, instead of spending time explaining it to other people. I can just say what I should have said right from the get go, "I do not have to justify myself to you or anyone for that matter". There is the truth, the truth that we all have to live by. No matter how much people want me to be free and open about things. I am not going to justify myself to people anymore. I want to die that that is that. I like to keep things simple and that is what is important to me. If things are not kept simple then they are annoying and tedious.
The other thing I hate having to deal with is when people tall me that I can be fixed. I know I have ranted about this before, but most people will plead and talk about fixing me and how I can be fixed, or something like that. However, the second I resist in anyway I am the bad guy and I am the one who is at fault. So yeah you know what, you guys are right. I am the one who wants to die and I am the one who knows I cannot be fixed. So how about a little gratitude here. I am saving you lots of time and effort, as well as emotional pain. So do yourself a favor and live in your world of hypocritical bliss. Believing that I can be fixed, but then telling me that I am the only one who can fix myself.
I cannot believe I just realized this now. I should have realized this years ago. Why the hell have I been wasting years and years fighting with people over my right to my own existence? Well no matter I figured it out now and that is what counts. I mean when I really get to the core of the issue the only reason I really want to die is because I cannot seduce females, that is all. I am just an ugly turd with no social skills and no female that I want has standards that low, and they never will. Ok they might when they are in their 50s but why bother at that point. Regardless, that is what I realized today. I can stop wasting my time trying to justify to others why I should die. I will just die and that is that. No one can help me and I cannot be fixed, for whatever reasons people want to make up. So do not ask me why because I am not going to answer your people anymore.