I haven't got to talk to my boyfriend Tyler in almost a month. Actually it's been over a month since I saw him last. I miss him a lot. I haven't missed someone like this in a long time. It actually makes me really sad thinking about him. His phone has been shut off and I've been calling tryin to see whenever it gets turned back on. I would just go over to his house but I don't wanna just show up randomly.. what if hes not home? what if he actually doesn't want to see me? I actually feel like crying. I let myself get close to him and now I'm hurt really bad. This feeling is exactly what I was afraid of whenever I started dating him. I love him. He opened my mind to new things and he helped me better myself and made me happy. Now I'm falling and I don't know what to do. I was about to see myself have a life that I wanted but now it feels like it's gone. I hope I get to see or atleast talk to him soon. I regret not seeing him more. I feel empty and that I'm missing something. I don't even know if were still together or what.