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Welcome To My Nightmare
i need to vent
I have been having issues and I don't have anyone to turn to for help. I don't understand whats wrong with me. I have been feeling depressed for a while. I have no good reason to be feeling this way, I just do. I'm not happy with my life. I know my lifes not bad, I don't have to worry about bills or anything but I'm ******** miserable here. My parents treat me like I'm a kid but its ok for my 16yr old sister to go out partying and drinking and hanging around guys 20+ but I can't do anything. I wanted to move out and go to school. I may not have money to buy whatever I wanted but I think I would be happier. I feel like I'm going no where in life and how my parents talk I'm stuck here forever. My head feels like it's going to explode, my thoughts are too overwhelming and I'm getting to the point where I can't handle it. Suicide crosses my mind almost everyday and I thought about cutting again. The only thing that helps me is pot. It relaxes me and makes everything feel good. I don't know what to do anymore. I miss my boyfriend Tyler, we haven't talked in 2 weeks and I haven't seen him in almost a month and its hard dealing with it. I feel really sad because he makes me want to live and makes me feel special and I need him its been so hard not talking or seeing him. I don't know what to do anymore. I can't handle this





 
 
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