I mostly think about death and sex. They're both nonexclusive thoughts. I think about all types of death. Suicide, murder, my death, other people's deaths, etc. Same applies for sex I think about girl on girl, guy on guy, guy on girl, gangbangs, orgies, etc. I don't really know why I think about these things, but I don't mind. I figure I'm young and this is probably just a phase of thoughts. Sooner or later it'll be two different nonexclusive thoughts. Before these two it was romance, and love. Which I guess now that I'm writing this down I kind of notice the similarities. Well not really they are more like opposites. As I understand more my thoughts get more morbid, or this could be part of the huge loop of my life. Maybe it's just the new medicine talking or I really am done. I'm in the mood to ruin things for myself. I'm in the mood to shut people out. I am in the mood to ensure I stay alone forever. I am in the mood for self-experimentation. I could use a drink first, but I don't have anything. I've spent most of my money on alcohol, I need to start saving. Idk...this song is stuck in my head for some reason...



Jack Shaindlin – I'm Tickled Pink
I'm tickled pink
That things are rosy
And skies are blue once again
(Do-do-do-do do do)

Let the bygones go bye-bye
No more will I sigh or cry
(Do do-do-de-do)

I'm tickled pink
The moon is yellow
And I'm your fellow tonight
(Do-do-do-do do do)
Soon we'll greet that red-letter day
When I will pop the question
And you say OK
Say then we'll be married in the month of May
(Do do-do-de-do)

I'm tickled pink
That things are rosy
And skies are blue once again
(Do-do-do-do do do)

Let the bygones go bye-bye
No more will I sigh or cry
(Do do-do-de-do)

I'm tickled pink
The moon is yellow
And I'm your fellow tonight
(Do-do-do-do do do)
Soon we'll greet that red-letter day
When I will pop the question
And you say OK
Say then we'll be married in the month of May