WaterAttire
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i left the girl i was going out with, removed her from everything. i dont know if it was the right thing. i cared about her deeply but barley 2 words a week over a dating site isnt a relationship. we use to actually speak a lot then she kinda just gave up. i know she wont notice for a few days and i dont think she will message when she dose. if she dose it will only go as far as her calling me a lire when i said id never leave but i wont sit around and be barley acknowledged, not again, it hurts when i get attached and that starts. its also the 1st time ive ever been the one to brake up with someone and that in its own feels terrible so idk if thats the feeling i have, guilt, or if i am sad cuz i cared about her and she gave up. like its so hard 4 me to differentiate emotion anymore. i cant tell if im sad from a lost love, guilty cuz i left, happy cuz its over, scared that she wont try to get me to forgive her, or worried that she wont care and had another guy so i was being played. i wish i wasnt so boring that people lose interest in me so fast but i can not help who i am. i just am conflicted. i wonder if thats how anyone before felt when they dumped me. god i would have given anything for 2 of them to have just turned around and given me a real shot. those 2 being the good ex and the ex who wasnt there. but oh well i guess.