7 years ago, when I made this account, I was a child that had no idea where I was heading.
Today I am sitting at Ohio State, 19 years old, about to move into my first apartment.
It's kind of scary.
I'm getting married soon.
(But that's top secret). Ha, right.
There's one thing I've been good at consistently throughout my life: keeping secrets.
But as I get older, these secrets aren't worth keeping anymore. They're silly and juvenile and they're attached to a person I used to be.
When I was 15, I met my soul-mate. You may not believe in soul-mates, but when you look into the eyes of someone and you're able to understand that they understand YOU and when you can feel that feeling of them looking right through you, believe me, you will.
What's more, when I was 15, I met my soul-mate online.
His name is Joshua.
I resisted the fact that I was in an online relationship and I never told anyone about it. All anyone knew was that I talked to some boy from Kansas for hours straight on the phone. (Well, besides my "best friends" of the time.)
Well, this year, Joshua came to me. We've been together in person since November. We're getting an apartment together this month. We're getting married this summer.
It's insane, I know. Ashley? What the hell are you doing? I don't know! BUT I LIKE IT. God has revealed to me he is the one for me and that I am supposed to take care of him. In a really strange dream, I'll admit, but whatever. I understood its meaning.
OMG. I just got confirmation that I'm getting the place as I was writing this journal entry.
I'm so happy I can't handle it.
THANK YOU GOD FOR EVERYTHING.
For my pain and my humbling.
For making me the person I am today.
For surrounding me with all of these BEAUTIFUL people.
I love You, and I love you.
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