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RPC's and Poetry
A sigh of relief
My reflection reminds me of memories, the way it changes and how as the days go by the past fades and I can barely remember who I use to be.

This new person in the mirror never knew who I was; and I can’t seem to find any resemblance in who I thought I’d become in the face staring back at me.

I’ve somehow derailed, detouring through a life that never seemed to suite my fancy. How did I get here? What have I become? Why am I so angry? Where did these tears come from?

A victim of self and a self-proclaimed villain. Did I miss out on being the heroine of my own story? Was she overcome by this sickening sum of self-pity and the high expectations that led us here to this tragedy?

I’ve traded the mystery for the mundane and I fear that this new sense of sanity is driving me insane; dreams now the only escape from this stagnant way of reality.

This needs to change, I refuse to let this writers block see to the end of me. I’m tired of letting this self doubt get the best of everything. I'm done with concerning over that which others think of me. This is my life, and I will live it however I damn well please.

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  • User Comments: [2]
    Sheggorath the skooma cat
    Community Member

    Fri Jul 26, 2013 @ 06:52am

    Reality is what you make it, grasp the delusions when you can. There is as much point regretting the past as there is planning for a certain future. You have become you, what you're on your way to be. Every story has a twists and slow moments, those needed down times between epic battles and adventures. Perhaps this is merely the back story? Insanity is only ever a chicken coop away, lurking and comfortingly reachable in our darkest times. But it sounds like you dont need sanity or insanity, you know the importance of self. And I'm impressed at you for facing the enemy I could not.

    To Hell In Handbaskets
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    Mon Jul 29, 2013 @ 05:13pm

    Thank you for that.

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