Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals


View User's Journal

Fragmented Self who wanders through life like a dreamer and wades through the river of dreams as though it were the only truth left in this world
My Roleplays
I'm pissed that when I have a really good roleplay and everyone loves it, and has a good time with it, IT STILL MANAGES TO DIE.

It's just terribly frustrating because this time I cannot reboot it. I cannot bring this one back and I don't know what I did wrong. Maybe I did wrong by giving up right now or I didn't step in soon enough but truly, I did step in before it's just that no one can see it or was around to change. Maybe I made a bad decision. Gods, my heart just hurts so bad to think it is dead. / tear

I'm scared that my newest idea would just die on me. I ... can't stand this routine. I'm not a roleplay hopper or a bad moderator. I just... have poor timing and luck? Seriously though, we have all tried to think of why at some point and we get no answers. WHAT AM I DOING WRONG?

Do I made the storyline too complex? Was it not complex enough? Did I not give enough to my people? DID I NOT LABOR OVER LEARNING NEW INFORMATION AND MAKING ENTERTAINMENT AFTER ENTERTAINMENT FOR THEM?! DID I?!

/ sigh

I'm not really as mad as I must seem from that rant but, I am genuinely frustrated. I am confused as to what I am doing wrong and want a chance to change. I want to know where I can fix or work on things that I do.

People are always so intimidated by me and I don't know why about that either. I mean, what about me is so terrifying? Is it that I'm full of life in their eyes or impressive? I really don't get it.

Manage Your Items
Other Stuff
Get GCash
Get Items
More Items
Where Everyone Hangs Out
Other Community Areas
Virtual Spaces
Fun Stuff
Gaia's Games

Customize your own avatar now!

Join Now

Have an account? Login Now!