Well thought I would give an update while I'm here.... Still have no goal... I feel the darkness creeping up on me again, thankfully I am awake during the day when the sun is out so it doesn't feel so dark. I have one plan... and only one... not sure if it's worth it though... I mean... it would help... it would give my life purpose... but I don't know if I'm even cut out for it, but that's my pessimism. Also... I feel I'm being watched... don't know why... but I feel as though I have eyes on me at all times... and the demons in the shadows don't pay attention to me... so I know it's not them....