So this will be my first official "Journal" entry. I'm sure as I get further into posting these regularly, they will be more interesting
So I guess I can start off by beginning with a small (maybe) rant... Here we go.
So lately I've been going through these terrible spells of depression and it's beginning to drive me up the wall After having to put up with it for so long, my parents finally decided to get me "medicated." The doctors all said that these meds should help with the depression, while also they should help with my constant anxiety and should help "mellow-down" my psychological disorder/OCD (I suffer with minor to severe trichotillomania/trich). And when they said that it would help with my disorder, I knew off the bat that that was a crock of s**t.
Anyway, after now being on these meds for well over two months, I'm beginning to think that they're only making things worse, not to mention my trich is getting way worse as well... And after these meds are supposed to be helping with the depression, it makes it go away, but I overall just feel emotionless... Like an empty ******** shell...
I'm tired of feeling empty all the time and i just want someone to talk to and to be there for me.. It's hard to find people when all they think you're doing is whining to them because you want attention...
I just don't know what to do anymore guys..
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