Since i won't talk to about this to my friends or family, I thought i would put it on her. No one knows i know here knows me outside of gaia... so there is no way of my loved ones finding out about it. Unless you all are pretending to be different people but are all really my family...
Well anyway. I just... have been so mad lately. It seems like everyone is just taking advantage of my kindness lately. I know there is one parent that leaves her kid here to go do whatever she wants for a while... And i would be fine with it but... she does it all the time and doesn't even send me a text or anything. Oh and when she asks me to watch her kid extra days... it doesn't feel like she is asking but telling me that i WILL watch her son these days if i want to or not. One more thing about her. One saturday, I agreed to watch her son until noon since i don't usually go out and do anything until like 12:30 or so. Well she didn't show up. I tried to call her at one... then two... then three. Finally at three thirty she answers the phone and tells me they will be another hour. She picked her son up at 4:40 and would not pick up my calls until 3:30 or so. It just made me soooooo mad! The only days i get to leave this blasted house is saturday, sunday and tuesday after 5pm. The rest of the time, I am stuck in this house.
Then my sister was always asking me to take her son so her and her boyfriend could go get drunk or whatever... Well i'm cool with that but sometimes I would like to go out, ya know? I just feel like they know i can't say no and sometimes make up things so i feel like i have no choice but say yes. Heck, sometimes they don't even have to give me a reason for me to say yes. I just can't bring myself to tell people no. I feel like they will be mad at me... or think i am a bad person because of it.... I try to get myself to but when i get the opportunity, I just suddenly think i have to say yes. When i started doing this, I thought it would be fun. The people were nice but it feels like people are just walking all over me now... I'm beginning to wonder if this was a good idea....
Well anyway.. There's other things, I wanted to put but... I think this is enough. Thanks for reading my stupid journal.
XXXThe doormat, Kiwi
rainbowflavoredkiwi · Tue Mar 26, 2013 @ 04:54am · 0 Comments |