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First entry is a little over half a month.
Ehh...
I wanna cosplay Cure Sword. But I look super bad in a skirt.
Or any costume meant for some skinny-*ss girl. :c
*initiate emo (but true) thoughts*
I hate myself in almost every way possible, inside and out.
I'm way too nice, so I get used and backstabbed like there's no tomorrow.
I can't cosplay any anime character nicely.
I embarrass myself on a daily basis.
I criticize everything.
But... I'd probably kill myself if I were almost anyone else...
I hate being a chick for one. I hate feelings, and girls seem to either have more or show them more, as much as I try not to.
I do indeed cut myself. A lot more than I probably should, if at all.
Why can't I be a fictional character... Or at least, one that doesn't deal with everything I do.
I get hit by a car, I laugh about it when it happens. I get backstabbed by a person I thought was actually my friend, and I find myself crying for days because I trust people too much.
Maybe I'll stop trusting everyone all together?
"The less you care, the happier you'll be"
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