Another sleepless night. Usually, I watch several episodes of Rosemary & Thyme before I try to sleep, but tonight I didn't. I just laid in bed hoping to sleep, but no. It actually made me pretty sad and realize that I can't do this any more but realistically that isn't my choice. Why isn't it my choice? I can't simply command my heart to stop thinking of someone I love and loved for seven years. But I can't do this any more, I can't take it. I try so hard not to think of her, not to think of my other half that is missing but it's impossible. But you know, it hurts, it hurts that she can't even text or e-mail a simple little thing just saying she is okay. I know she isn't sleeping all day, I know she is watching True Blood and writing ... It hurts. I don't know what I'm going to do when I run out of Rosemary & Thyme episodes to watch ...
· Fri Mar 15, 2013 @ 11:22am · 0 Comments