So yeah it was my birthday and as always it sucked. I thought that this year would be different because I'm away from all the drama that comes with living with the family. It was different, but in a way it was still the same. No drama which was a good thing. Certain people remembered my birthday which was good, but not the important ones. Even me and it's supposed to be my birthday. I actually had to remind the important ones of my birthday, even my bf which makes the day worse.
I wake up in the morning to some birthday messages and to get spoiled by the boyfriend. Well for one I was sick so that was a downer. Two I was at school ALL day long starting at 9 am and didn't get back till like 11pm. Man sitting in a classroom and doing work isn't really birthday material. Also there is the fact that I have class during my friends break and I don't have class when they do. The boyfriend didn't really give me attention so getting spoiled was out of the question. So at the end of the day I went and bought MYSELF and ice cream.
Really I think the only one who really made me feel special was my little sister whom I don't get so see that often and my grandparents and tia. Those phone calls really put a smile on my face. I don't understand why is it that the people that I rarely get to see are the ones that put in so much effort. I mean hey yeah I don't know what I want for my birthday, but you know a card would have been nice. They don't even have to buy one, but could make one with paper and pencil. I would at least know that they care.
Birthdays. Birthdays suck. I hate birthdays and I'm reminded of why each and every passing year. Don't ask me what I want cause the one thing I want most cannot be given. He would have remembered, he would have made me feel special, he would have put in all the effort, he would have done more than any one else. He would have spoiled me on my special day. But he can't because he left to a place where we can't reach him. Without him my birthdays are really lonely. If I could have a birthday wish really come true, it would be to be able to spend a day with you, Dad.
· Thu Mar 14, 2013 @ 10:49pm · 0 Comments