It slightly hurts me when my mom mocks movies and stories about true love & real friendships. She doesn't believe in real love or friendship, I can't stand it. She is really good at avoiding current problems, she ignores everything; she has a really awful imagination. She ignores the past too; when I was younger her husband would verbally abuse me and treat me badly. According to my mom, it never happened; I was terrified of him when I was young, I absolutely hate him now. I was scared of my mom too when I was younger, one time she told me I was a waste of air and I never forgot it. I was made fun of in school for all my years, I only had one friend that came and went through out the years. My first crush mocked me and made fun of me, but I was always there for her; she told me to leave her alone and to never speak to her again.
I think a combination of all of this equates to what I currently am. I don't blame any one, it isn't any of their faults. I have absolutely no confidence. I want to escape so badly, but I don't know how to.
· Sat Mar 09, 2013 @ 04:24am · 0 Comments