im emotionally dead. i just spent several months with a guy who controlled me and mentally and emotionally abused me. i dont know why i stayed but i did. it was the worst thing i had ever done. i was like a bird in a cage, unable to fly. im free now. luckily. i finally realized why i became who i did, the very opposite of what i always wanted. im working towards my recovery. im a survivor. of many dreadful things. but im working towards bettering myself. and now that i know why i'm this way, maybe it'll all be a little easier. i just want the negativity to end. i just want to be happy. is that so wrong?