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i opened the window and tried to squeeze through, but it was only designed to open so far...enough to smell what the world has to offer...not enough for teeth.

i'll get a long fork.

i spent valentine's evening at a nice bed & breakfast a few blocks away. i'd never been there before. we were the last guests served. i followed him as he made his rounds to friends, because he's a friendly, sweet, popular kind of guy and i am a dog and will always be a dumb dog

there's a reason why dogs don't rule the world. there's no power in single-minded loyalty. only a kind of sad...

well. we didn't get any sleep that night, though.

well. we also didn't have sex. nothing like.

i am observing the one rose on my desk. when i cut the stem, it bled all over my fingers and i tucked it into an empty cola bottle, for lack of a vase. it has begun to blossom. the petals curl back; the edges are black. when i break one off, it crumples to a powder. my mother sent me a box the other day that leaked white powder.

my hands are all dusted in a dry powder. when i touched him with my hands, he fell asleep. when i got up to leave, he did not notice me.

so i opened the window and tried to fly out, but these windows were locked with steel.

well we were all out of toilet paper, both of us, so i went to the top floor study lounge. and i noticed the door to the roof was slightly ajar. but when i tried the knob, it was locked.

he had been sitting there for an hour, with his lock picks, trying to get the door open. that's how he wanted to spend valentine's day with me. illegally on the roof of our dorm.

i dreamed i kissed him a lot and then i woke up and realized that the tin of peanuts in the candy dish was squashing my frog. i woke up at noon, and malingered. i haven't kissed him properly in reality. when we walked into the restaurant, i tried to let go of his hand, and so he let go. i didn't want to be that gay kid. i don't know what's wrong with me.

i am shadowing an ophthalmologist and my glasses prescription is wrong so i've been wearing non-prescription contacts i bought off the internet. of all the doctors, an ophthalmologist. do i need my eyes checked.

i opened the window, i got it to open all the way, and it is snowing.