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Emotions running high
Just the way I live my life....unfortunately
finally i dreamt about him again
i've been longing to feel something that i've felt when i was younger
i guess it turned into obsession
and finally i dreamt about him
i miss him
i wonder how he thought about me yelling at him on the last day we've ever seen each other
i wonder if he had forgiven me
but then again...
why did he react like that?
he seemed devastated
i mean
he walked away from me and sat down
...i yelled at him
he got up and walked away
i guess he was frustrated
......why can't he see that it was all just a cover up?
i was too coward to pour my heart out
so instead i helped someone pour her heart out to him
she asked me to say goodbye to him....
i refused at first
but i thought...i messed up to this point..
can't get any worse
i called his name several times but he didn't even budge
so i just said "BYE"
went home and cried...
i should've said sorry at least for making his last day worse
i should've just kept quiet
at least that way it would be happier for me...
to keep those happy memories that i've accumulated without feeling guilty
it was so great but i had to ruin it
i'm sorry





 
 
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