So how to update how to start out to start. Well I ended up being absent from gaia for a few months took a trip down crazey moddy lane that led back to sucidal cutting lane that ended up sticking me in the Hopsital. I got out and now im seeing a theripsit as well as a physologist. I guess in some weird way she is helping or mabue its just me. So its been a little over two months since the last time I cut. I still think about it all the time,its annoying really. But I dont do it...Iv got a boy freind hes amazeing but he wants two things I cant give him right now. And my sister well...thats a story thats already made me cry once today lets just not go there again...