I'm lost in this life I thought I could take on. The life I thought would go well and help me be normal. But I can't change, not at all. And to think my choices messed up my life this bad so early. I guess I'm just fallowing in the steps of my older sister. But I'm sure she didn't even get it this bad. I already know my parents hate me. And I can't do anything at all to fix that with the way I am. I wish I could give them a new daughter that won't end up like me. I know I'm only 15 right now but I feel like I'm not going to make it with the way things are now. There's no action I make to change things with out changing my way of thinking. I thought of running away. All that will do is make my problem worse. They always come back at some point so I can't do that. I need help. Or atlest a little emotional support ... Why is this all so hard to find?? Mabie things will change in the end. If not I wonder what will happend. Where ill end up and who will care. No ones ever stayed around long enough to care where I end up but my parents. And good job we've done so far on that. I'm not inside my house. I'm sitting the car where my mom left me. I don't feel welcome there any more. But I wonder how long I can stay away. I wonder if there's somewhere else I can go where I'm not a dissipointment to other people. But I doubt any place exists...
xI-LovelessxRitsuka-Ix Community Member 
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