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The Sadies dance is coming up!!!! Ahhh! My friend Lily got convinced to go my her sophomore friend, and she's trying to convince me to go, because she doesn't know any freshmen going... whoo, she convinced me. And so now she's making me choose to either ask this guy named Brian, or Robert, and I have chosen Brian because for the past two days I have been texting Robert, and getting information out of him without him knowing, ha ha, and I found out he does NOT want to go. So now Brian comes to mind. Both of these guys have been my friends since at least 6th grade, so it's really easy to talk to them. The past weekend I have spent it with Lily, and we were trying to prepare me to ask Brian... it's so complicated for me! What if he says no!! Or yes!?? I want to take the chance, but I am afraid of the outcome of my actions. What if he laughs in my face and walks away? What if he just doesn't say anything at all, and then acts like I never said that?? Or what if he just stays in silence and then never talks to me again??? Ugh.

I tried today... to ask him... I was originally going to do it today once he passed me to go to his locker, but the buses were late -.-... and then I was going to do it after homeroom (we have homeroom together), but then he shooed me away because he was talking to his guy friends. During homeroom (we sit in the same table and talk) I took his schedule, and we have fourth hour together, so then I decided to tell him either before or after. But both times he was with his friends!! The only time I don't see him with his friends is in the morning, and that got ruined by the late buses. So now I plan on doing it tomorrow morning... so complicated! I know what to say, but what if I say it wrong!!?

Lily got so mad at me for not asking Brian, but I told her the reasons, but she was still bugging out about it. I don't think she knows what's going on inside my head when I go near Brian. Brain Shuts Off Completely. Fun. Another problem is my face. My face always turns red at random times, embarrassing moments, awkward moments, crush moments, or when everyone is staring at me or when I am the center of attention. I may act tough, but inside I really am a girl who cares about things.

Don't know what will happen tomorrow,
Ace