So I had a dream about dying last night and a woke as I slowly died. The second between waking and dying the whites light blinded me and all i hear is silence, peace, nothing at all. So beautiful it would have made me cry. but no. I wake uo to my pitiful life, My mom hating my brother and bragging about making his life hell. My brother gone to work already. And me, Just quiet me. No longer wanting to be in the world goes and puts on a personality and eats food. I do whatever, really I could have killed a person and not a care in the world.
Do they notice? I don't care? I want to die?
NO. they don't, well if they do they don't show it.
Well, I want to change but all I get is regret and painful memories.
I rather not open that anymore than I need to.
I have festering wounds that should have killed me but only ground.
Geesh, get some humor.
No, I am funny, painfully laughing at the pain of living in this society.
What is society?
People judging your every move. And saying "Improve this, you are an over achiever, Grow a pair and say it!!, Just shut up, No one cares."
What is the point of the life humans live?
Nothing really. Material s**t that no one needs anyway.
People are in the gutters and are perfectly happy because they have love or something that makes life worth it. Materials bring nothing but pain in the end.
Well enough of this rant, bye.
Thank you for the response <3 It really got to me
To The Moon And Back SG
· Mon Jan 21, 2013 @ 02:22am · 0 Comments