Call me Rainleaf
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Growing Pains
It's pretty funny that I've been on this site since 2007 and I'm still pretty damn poor compared to a lot of other users on here. It's the same way on Solia, too. Ha! How weird is it that it's 2013? That seems like a fake number to me. I'm not entirely sure why. I still have a phobia of calling restaurants to place orders, and I feel like my brain is melting due to my lack of concentration and inability to finish writing words. I'm currently dealing with my parents being stubborn morons (but what else is new?) and having emotional breakdowns about the future. I can't even handle myself right now. I'm not even sure how my boyfriend can, either. Oh yeah. We're back together. What a weird twist of fate this has been. And on the subject of him. He's been pretty....upset lately due to the fact his transition is taking longer than he thought, and I feel so bad for him. God, it's just so shitty seeing him so upset like this. It's just depressing to watch. And there's nothing I can do, unless I bust into the hospital with a rifle and demand they give him the hormones he requires. But uh, I don't see that ending well. I really wish he had just been born a biological male. His life would be so much easier. But then, we probably wouldn't have met. And he's taught me so much and has made me so happy. My coworker is always saying that we have past lives and she brings up the topic of earth angels. All of this is so odd, and somehow it makes sense. I still have a hard time wrapping my mind aound it, though.