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Inside my mind
Each and every thought, vision, concept, idea, that sprouts from the depths of my awaking conscious, to my slumbering head, consuming my thoughts with a distorted twinge of the unique- yet dark information, lain within this lone journal.
I just wanted to ask you something,

and I'm only going to ask you once;
so don't answer it timidly.

Do you really want to be with me?

Don't say "yes" if you aren't willing to commit yourself-
to another living being with unquenchable thirst for love,
and an undying fiery heart to offer.

You've made me cry, time, and time, after countless times again.
It's almost to a point where I am incapable of shedding another tear over this.

I'm not telling you to change,
I'm not trying to tell you to be someone you're not.
You're a free individual who is more than fully capable of making your own decisions in life,
whether they are for the better or for the worst.

Is that all you're after?
Is that really the only thing you want out of me?
My looks? How I offer my open arms?

I give you these compliments and flattering words because I care for you;
well enough to try to make you feel like you're on top of the world,
to help you feel like you can over-come any obstacle, and to empower you.
Now it's become clear to me that you are incapable of returning the same.

I'm not going to beg you to do it, either.
I'm not going to nudge you into doing it.

I can't make you- force you, to display any other significant sign of affection for me.




I don't even see why we'd even bother attempting to get up the third time.

Some sick little puppy love I've had for you for over seven to eight years, that is near impossible to shake.

I know this because I've tried SO hard to get over you numerous times before.

It's pointless, and it'd be even more meaningless to continue thriving under this mental strain.
If you see differently, please, give me your perspective.

Do you consider yourself someone who contributes to every aspect of the relationship?

I can recall you only saying "want."
Wanting to.

Yeah, that should be more than enough to sate me.

All words and no action.
That's all it ever was,
and that's all it ever will be.


Atrophied Pig
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