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I Love him so much </3
I realized it was too late... i know that i cant have you... cuz my timing was beyond late....and now i sit here thinking about what we could of been...i Regret... leaving you...i regret all those times we Argued... and most times i know it was my fault..the constant arguing.. the running away.. was all me.. my fault. but thats not all i think about.. i think about the special moments we shared... and forever they will stay in my heart..and memory. Jason i remember the first day i met you.. it brings tears to my eyes..tears of joy cuz thats the Day were everything happened and when everything started.. and i don't Regret meeting you...i remember this day all so well as if i lived it yesterday.. we both looked kind of noobish haha.. i remember you had your pikachu costume and snorlax costume.. and it all started with the Pika Girl song... the laughs we shared the theme song of the pokemon show that we both sang together.. the awesome costumes you showed me of DBZ... if i could..i would start all over from that day..and Re-Live it... and there's times we had the arguments we started dating.. i would fix it all...and just maybe..if i didn't run away..like the coward i was...we would of been together right now.. and wishing each other a happy new year...and i'd be going on about how much i love you and how much u mean to me.... my love has never stopped for you this heart only beats for you..and ik it..no one else can ever replace someone as precious as you....i know i have broken your heart in the pass..but i aswell broke my own heart, not being with you..i realize to late that i was never happy with anyone else...because you were all i thought about..thats why i wouldn't last with anyone..because you have always cross my mind.. and today still do, every time i see you come online.. i have this feeling in my heart i feel like it stops a couple seconds.. i feel like heavens hands is holding my heart the beating of my heart that feels more like drums playing the beats to our song..i feel something so strong for you like no other.. and it has always been this way since the day i met you. when im with you..when your around me.. i feel both weak and strong.. i get lost when im with you.. and nothing else in the world matters to me but you..but ... as much as this hurts not being with you..not talking to you as much.. not able to say those words i once miss..to say to you.. with love and affection and embrace.. it hurts because my heart just Can't Let you go...i'm honestly no longer in control..my heart is controlling me...and taking over and all i know that it wants you in it..to complete the other half of my heart with yours where it belongs....where i can once feel safe and secure with your love that vines around my heart for protection... if i can't have you...at least... i have you in my dreams...where fantasy is were im happy then reality.. all i want is to sleep forever and dream of you and i together...always.. and never wake up♥ ~met on IMVU~





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