Well, it has been a while since I have put anything new up in here so I figure it best to just do it now. Nothing much has changed in my life, other than my rapidly approaching wedding. I have nine more days until then and it's a little weird to think about. Granted, it has been weird from the get go, but lately it's been dawning on me just how....different things are going to be. I will be someone's wife. Not just girlfriend, or fiance, or even roommate. Wife. That single word comes with SO much more behind it. Not only will my actions be more consequential, but I will have someone else's opinion on what I do with my life. *Pauses at this thought* I will have to defer to them in almost everything, and that's something that is going to take me a LONG time to get use to. I have never had to ask permission or watch what I do when it comes to what I want. With this one day, that will all change.
*Sighs* Maybe I am reading too much into this. This is suppose to be a huge, special, wonderful day in my life. Which, I have no doubt it will be. But, I have this voice in the back of my head just chattering at me. I suppose I could just rack this all up to cold feet, or my desire for the dramatic taking just a little too much of a lead. Whichever the case may be, I know one thing for sure. I have been dreaming of this day for my entire life, and now I have the man of my dreams to go with it.
*Smiles and nods* I suppose I will just have to hold on to that thought from here on out. Nine days is nothing, and then it will all be over and done with. I just hope I don't trip walking down the aisle. *Grins* Or take my dad down with me!
In other news, Ristar has been going through a bit of a change. Thanks to a little bit of magic from one of her friends, she no longer has the nagging voice of Alexandria in her mind. The two personalities are one, finally, but at a cost. She has forgotten all about the one man that both she and Alexandria had always wanted most but could never truly have, one Damion Wolf. Thanks to this lovely little mishap, she is free of the aggression she has toward him, but is this a good thing? She has run into him twice now, and both times he remembers things she has absolutely no knowledge of. And, during their last interaction, he made it clear that she was no more than a plaything to him. Which, of course, has our lovely redhead all sorts of torn up. Even more so since she has been having dreams of him lately, ones that make no sense and yet stir up things in her she can't deny. I am hoping to get the two of them together to play it out, but that's a toss up since my schedule and my darling Wolf's are a bit different. *Crosses fingers* Here's hoping, though. *Grins*
*Looks over everything and nods* Well, that seems to be everything that has to do with me. It took me a lot longer to write it all out than I had thought it would, but that tends to happen nowadays. I hope you enjoy my rantings, I know it makes me feel better to be able to get it all out. Now, it's off to work with me. Have a lovely day, everyone!! *Kisses*
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