Wonderous colours have taken hold of the night sky. It flows through out the town in which I live. reflecting off the snow and windows. Bright beautiful colours.. As I walk arm in arm with my dearest friend. He warms me with kind words and wonderful hugs. I'm feeling as if this, our relationship is changing. With the cold blanketing us. I stood sighing in his arms, for they werent the ones I wanted.. Yet I felt safe and warm. When he poked my nose with gloved fingers. Laughed when I hit him with a snowball then ran after me only to wrestle me to the ground... Then smiled as his face rested close to mine only to have me turn my face from him.. More and more time we spend together and each time, I have to find the will to push him away... He is not who I love.. The one I do love... ~lesigh~... it feels as if we are merely amusing each other. Making me, forcing me to rethink these feelings... Bittered and annoyed now.. I'm but a secret, I guess we both agreed that it was for the sake of an undramatised relationship. I'm feeling off and I'm beginning to think.. maybe the guy I'm suppose to be with is right here with me and not a secret at all. "If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldnt be in it..." (Marilyn Monroe...) I'm too upset to think of this. lol... wait I think I'm very tired.. yeah. Only get this way when I'm really really tired.
As always I remain.. a confused Dream
Over and out...
· Wed Dec 26, 2012 @ 08:58am · 0 Comments