lifes always hard. i may never have emotiongs or relationshis going my way but thats just ife. i happen to be a very very uptight guy. just how things go i suose i like thinks to go wel and without un answered questions trailing. but cant have all the answers and is lame to try to. it may be better to just take like one step at a time and just see where ill end up. maybe nowhere or maybe just where i am ment to be.
its always late at night i start to think. when things are quiet, theres no one around and theres just me and my bed. i looked back at all my old posts and ive been thinking a bit on how i am and how my ersonality is a really confrentashinal one. i dont like to fight but i aso fight to easily when things are done that make no sence.
my, i guess gf, got a tattoo. i reacted negitivly, she hasnt been on, i reacted negitively. she accuses me of cheeting a lot, i might be over reacting to that. i know things are rough for a lot of eole and a lot of peole have trust issues when theyve been cheeted on before. i cantet what others do, or not do, effect how i feel, who i am, or how i act. they are in control of them, no mater how foolish, and im in controll of me. i do whats right by me and that should be enough at the end of the day as long as i can live with me.
people will aways do stupid things, i just cant have that effect me. do onto others and all that.
if anyone from my past reads this, im sorry. by no means forgive, nor forget, just know i am honest in my regret.