I love this time of year. I went to the play ground yesterday at the park with a friend. XD We're both a bit sick. He is a bit more than me but I had to get out of the house. He didnt want me to go alone so he tagged along. I told him to go back home and get some rest but he was insistant. XD Was a lovely day. We just talked and talked about anything. I love conversations that go that way. I'm glad he came with me because I wouldve been a bit depressed. Ive been thinking about the guy I'm like totally head over heels in love with. XD Talked to my dear friend about him and he was a bit cool about the topic. He kind of didnt like me talking about him. A bit awkward. I just thought we were cool like that. Friends that easily understood each other.. but in a way.. I felt kind of dumb for bringing up the topic to him. He was almost my boyfriend after all. I wish I knew what to do. I want to keep him as a friend.. but I fear there will be that unwanted awkwardness. He was always the one I turned to when I needed a friend, but... going out with him a few times is what killed our relationship. He wanted more, I only thought of him as a friend. Mostly because I know one of my friends is totally in love with him. I cant get in their way. Well.. Hes not going out with her but she wants to. So i'm not getting in her way. If I had the option... lol no. What am I thinking. It must be depression taking hold of my thoughts.
I miss talking to the man I love. We havent been talking much lately. either hes too busy or I'm too busy.. just cant find time as easily anymore. God I miss him. I love him so much it hurts.
As always.. Me being loyal..
Over and out
· Wed Dec 05, 2012 @ 07:38pm · 0 Comments