Today was rather shitty.
The same things just repeated. Bridger pissed me off by taking my binder and tossing it into the classroom sink during science while I was in the restroom. I was so angry that this has been the first time that I've ever had such a fierce desire to injure someone in one of the worst ways ever. I actually wanted to take a textbook, sneak up behind him, and bash his head in. A dent wouldn't hurt. Just enough to severely hurt him and get myself suspended.
However when I came home today I talked to my dad. Instantly I started crying (I'm sensitive, don't blame me) and all he could tell me was that he was going to contact the principle. Then he told me to talk to him during school tomorrow.
What the hell?
I can't talk to him. Not without crying. Maybe I'll just have some emotional support from Aurora. She's always been there for me, ever since the start of the school year. As for Mariah? Maybe her, too...but like I've said in other entries, she scares me.
Also, I've been starting to get the thoughts of suicide. I don't mean to be such an attention whore, but it's true. Things have gotten so bad between Bridger and I that I've started to become depressed and restless.
I don't know what to do anymore. All I can do, though, is just cry about it.
Because that's all I've ever done, right? Cry?
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