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I Just Type It To Get It Out
Ima difficult person. i just use this to have a place were My family wont read it =]
Ever since I heard those words... I can't stop thinking about how true they are..... All he cares about is getting in my pants.... Honestly I'm not that attractive and I don't know what goes on in his head..... But ever since my mom told me that..... He's come to prove her right...... "If he respects you and really loves you he won't touch you until you're married." I hate myself for being so stupid. He only texts me when he wants to.... If I text him 75% of the time he doesn't reply and when he does 15% of the time he leaves in the middle of our conversation or is EXTREEMELY boring..... And the other ten% He mentions nothing but how much he wants me an honestly I'm getting tired of it. Why can't he just have a normal conversation with me like he does with his color guard friends?! I thought things would get better I thought we'd actually be able to have conversations.... But no. I thought wrong. Honestly I HATE how close hes becoming with them. Like and he's getting a bit too friedly with the captain. And yes. I know. I'm probably overeacting like always but. I. Can't. Take. It. I miss him. But when Im with him we can't even have a decent conversation. He had a choice to come home with me but no. HE ******** STAYED AND JUST SAT THERE TALKING TO HIS COLOR GUARD FRIENDS. NOT EVEN ******** PRACTICING. Like Okay then. Whatever then. I don't even know what to feel anymore. I just hate it! I hate it all. I regret telling him to join color guard. I regret letting him touch me. But then again I deserve it. That's what I get for being stupid. I can't take it. I can't take anything anymore. Some one slap me out of this and tell me to stop overeacting. Someone comfort me. Someone tell me everything I've seen has been a misunderstanding.






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FluffCat
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commentCommented on: Wed Nov 28, 2012 @ 01:49am
have you told him this or i mean mentioned it? (and girl you know im there for you if he doesnt stop touching you. i will turn him into a nothing. not a boy cuz ill take/chop his d**k and not a girl for obvious reasons:a nothing.<3)


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