My name is Eden and its 1:01 AM, November 25, 2012.
So here we go...
I was watching this anime 23 mins ago called "Say I Love You." It came out a month ago(although not really sure... I'm guessing here ) and I just fell in love with it. I felt like I can relate so much and dream about what can actually happen to me in real life.
FLASHBACK: Last year I was such a newbie to the school I was enrolled in and when class started I was just a loner. (I think I still am now... But only my friends would know and judge upon me) Until we were given assigned seats. Funny, that the class was Spanish 1. The people called me Hispanic because of my last name and probably my skin tone, but I did not care what they called me (When I was really Filipino...) So the guy sitting next to me happened to also be Filipino and I was like "Oh. Great " As months went by he talked to me and I barely talked to him because I thought that I should just stay alone and hopefully someone will notice me. I was being polite when I could, but NOPE thats not going to happen because he kept annoying me. SERIOUSLY CUT IT OUT. He kept poking my sides every chance he could and as days went by I started to become so much more careful I felt ninja, but at the end he caught me by surprised. Also during the months I had dry eyes (My eyes were sensitive to light that I felt like I couldn't see and it burned so much ) and whenever it occurred I just didn't want to talk to him or anyone. Here's the devastating part or the love part that comes in. So around the 1st semester he showed signs that he liked me.(I didn't care for the moment) Poking, talking to me, singing that little tune with me (Marukaite Chikyuu), and kicking my chair when we were in rows for 2nd period... Around the end of 1st semester( I guess), we did a cooking project for Spanish and had to record ourselves. My hair was long and no one has ever seen me at the school with my hair tied up into a ponytail until that very day that I had to present my project. When I presented my project I felt so embarrassed, but the person who distracted me was the Filipino sitting next to me. He talked and looked at the video project and the one thing that made me have butterflies for the first time was when he said "You look cute in a ponytail." Also another sign that he gave was when he asked to lay on my arm during Spanish. I didn't know what was wrong with him.... And he hugged me tight in fourth period which was unexpected.
I wish I could tell him that I liked him back during that time, but he was just so smart and his friends would probably outsmart me also I was shy too... I missed my chance, but I’m not going to give up. For his birthday I’ll make sure that I say “Hi” and “Happy Birthday” and ask him if he still likes me. I really really like him. He’s so smart, cute in my eyes, and funny. I wish I can say what’s on my mind at school, but who is there to talk to?
Sometimes it makes me want to cry and be sad that no one cares for me now at school… Even if friends are there... I’m always the fun and cheerful one around other people I go to, but will there be someone to comfort me when I’m alone or I had problems?
P.S. Yesterday I got cute bunny earrings from Claire's. Those bunnies will now be my good luck charm~
Eden Bunny Cosplay
· Sun Nov 25, 2012 @ 07:01am · 0 Comments