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I don't know whether to keep on smiling or to start walking away from such a beautiful view.

Everyone in front of me is happy, they're smiling, they're playfully teasing each other, and they're just filled with joy.

I feel like a little terrible virus that is hiding itself from its surroundings. I feel like if I show my true form, I'll destroy everything in front of me.

I don't want to do that. It's so beautiful... It's so peaceful....

I don't belong here...

Even when I really want to join, even when I really want to speak up, even when I really want to smile and laugh to be a part of them, I can't.

I feel left out. I feel like I don't belong here.

So hiding my heart, I walked away.

I'm envious. I'm jealous. I'm disappointed. I'm alone.