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A place where clouds split
Tears from the Eyes Behind my Head
So I realized... Youmacon my exfiancee was there.. and I was like OH THE DDAAAAAAMNNNN IIITTTT. I was like YEAH. He's not here until Friday he kinda snuck his head over to see me in Goth Sailor Moon. Yeah didn't think I would run into him again until rave on Saturday... truth.

Not that I started hiding at the con. I'm over it. I even smiled at him and was like.. YUP I'm still sexy without you and looking good in PINK BITCCCHHHH

anyways.

I started to see that he was tweeting to my friends. that's cool. I kinda got interested in whats been going on in his life.. yeah cool whatever... until I saw this girls post. I got more interested than usual. So I clicked around and found pictures of her and her baby. I couldn't help but have this huge... pain hit me. LIKE. HIT ME hit me. I don't believe I was upset.. but more along the lines of... man.. I got cheated on. And that precious life was the outcome of it. I can't hate on this child. I want to cry. I can't though because this beautiful baby was born. Granted I hate the father but I love love love love this babys cute little face.

A LOT of my friends know that I want to have kids of my own. Sadly I don't think I'll find any man that's going to do it for me. I want someone to be there for me. I want that man in my life.. soon. I'm starting to give up hope.

I'm moving to California to pursue my dreams. I know I shouldn't chase love with dreams. I'm kinda over all this. I'm getting worked up again. I should have left it alone.

I found this one on his twitter and actually like it

When a person is in love, their brain ignores the person's flaws & makes it difficult for them to leave a person who causes them pain

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