What does one say to the person they love. The person they are meant to be with. When in truth they cannot and will not think the possible nor the impossible. The dark feelings one might have over the love. Does this darkness take over the love, tainting it where there is nothing but dismay, disappointment and jealousy. Most deny ever feeling these things at all but when told, the feelings the other might possess could grow to that of a stronger affection one has of the other or.. the love and trust dwindles, only to be replaced with that oh so wonderful feeling of disgust. I guess it depends on the people involved.
With me, I love to hear that a man only wants my attention and that alone. To have a person in my life like that; fighting for my attention and affection is something that is most desireable in my eye. I cannot turn away such efforts. I in turn focus all my attention on the person and.. after that nothing else matters, but us. People of the world will fight to hurt me and my loved one, but in the end.. If there is love, trust and loyalty... I am all good. I would be trully happy to find.. this one person.
I will admit.. I thought I had it in the past. Darkness clouded my love with suspicion, betrayal and anger. I fell in love too quickly, but I did love him. To me he was beautiful and I wouldve done anything for him. Sadly our love broke and I could do nothing to mend it back to its former glory. I wonder if it was my fault or his. or just the people around us clouding our judgement. In the end. We were both hurt and for this, I'll never forgive myself. Just a glimpse to see if hes ok.. made me happier than anything could have. I never read the last message he sent me, be it from pride or anger or the pain I was in. Thus I will not rush into such things soo rashly anymore. I will try not to be quick in falling in love again. I hope I am wiser.. and I hope I am everything the person wants in his life. Well heres to hoping.
As always I'll always be Star.. weird, funny, and a bit odd
Over and out
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· Wed Oct 24, 2012 @ 03:45pm · 0 Comments