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HOPELESS BY: N.Z...
The people I imagine are nicer when I pretend.
The people I imagine don’t judge me.
The people I imagine don’t hate me.
The people I imagine like me.
The people I imagine think I’m beautiful.
The people I imagine love me, and they let me love them too.

I wish I didn’t have to pretend.
I wish I didn’t have so much to judge.
I wish I didn’t have so much about me to hate.
I wish people liked me.
I wish people thought I was beautiful.
I wish someone loved me, how I love them.

I stopped pretending, so I decided to change.
I do so much to change for you.
I starve myself for you.
I cry and hurt for you.
I raise my grades for you.
I perform for you.
I work so hard for you.
I act too nice for you.
But it’s never enough for you.
Because you’ll never notice me.
And I’ll never be good enough for you.

But it’s alright.
Don’t feel bad, love.
I’m used to it.
I’ve never been good enough for anyone.
I’ve never been enough of anything for anyone.
I’ve never been beautiful enough for anyone.
I’ve never been skinny enough for anyone.
I’ve never performed well enough for anyone.
I’ve never worked hard enough for anyone.
I’ve never raised my grades high enough for anyone.
I’ve always cried for myself at how pitiful I am.
I’ve always lost weight for others, not myself.
I’ve always tried to change myself.

I don’t let anyone in anymore.
That means no one can know the true me anymore.
No one can truly hate me anymore.
No one can truly dislike me anymore.
No one can truly love me, but why would they?


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  • User Comments: [2]
    Tayahashanti
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    Sun Oct 14, 2012 @ 01:56am


    Thats how i feel sometimes smilies/icon_crying.gif


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    Sun Oct 14, 2012 @ 02:02am


    me too Tayahashanti


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