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Where Is My Mind?
Yep. My Journal. On gaia. About my ways and such.- []-
I Barfed and Laughed
First of all..OH MY GOD! THE DARK KNIGHT RISES WAS AMAZING!!
T ^T I cried at the end.
AGHH!! Christian Bale! Anne Hathaway!
They were so beautiful together.. T []T
Amazing. Can't wait for Man of Steel.
I wonder if they'll do a Justice League movie..
It sounds a bit doubtful but it would be pretty cool.
I just loved Gary Oldman.
He's one of my old guy crushes.
> w< And Christoph Waltz.

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Anyways!!
I went to see all my friends at Balboa Park on Sunday for a picnic.
I loved seeing all my friends. It made me happy.
But it also made me really depressed.
Before, my boyfriend was one of my best friends but we recently broke up.
I was and am still a little depressed.
I guess things can't go back to how they were before.
I cried three different times that same day..
He's my Turkey and I never wanted things to end up like now.
I doubt he'll read this. I don't even know who does.
I know I hurt him. I don't think he knows that he hurt me.
It hurt me when he didn't say hi.
It hurt me when he walked away when I came.
It hurt me that he wouldn't look at me.
It hurt me when he didn't say anything at all.It hurt me when he walked away every now and then.
I ended up being very sick by the end of it all.
I couldn't feel my hands and I couldn't stop shaking.
It was so hot and I felt like I couldn't breathe.
Everyone except him had asked if I was okay.
My friend, David, bought me something to drink.
I nearly fainted. By the time I got home, I threw up in the parking lot.
It hurt me the most when he didn't even say bye.
It really hurts.
It hurts even more when I keep wishing, dreaming, fantasizing of someone I don't even know or might not even exist.
I can't wait anymore. I can't keep hoping for this long.

I know I'm ridiculous. That much is true.
But what can I do? I'm a pisces..
I'm just a dreamer.
I really needed to vent all this out.
It's all my fault I get this depressed.
I'm just a foolish person.
What I want is a foolish dream.
A foolish wish.
My foolish fantasy.
That I still hope will come true.
I guess I can be dramatic too.
I'm a butt.
I don't like vomiting but when I do, I can't help but laugh.
I barfed in a Subway bag so it was clearly seen.
It was funny.
I guess I feel a little better now that its off my chest.
In the end, I guess I'm really just breaking my own heart.
My Turkey didn't even say hi or goodbye.
I saw Trainspotting for the third time.
It gets better each time I watch it.
I'm still reading the book too.
I gotta stop letting things get to me..
Well, thank you for letting me complain.
I guess that's all with me.
Nisekoi is getting so good!!






User Comments: [1]
JacknOph
Community Member





Sun Aug 26, 2012 @ 09:57am


Course I read this s**t!!!!
I don't know why I did, I guess I just like to pretend we're still close.
I know we aren't or maybe it's just me I don't know.
I'm sorry for what it's worth.
I only came that damn day to see you.
It's just when I saw you I don't know I was so...ummm bittersweet?
I was overjoyed to see you, but I knew everything was different.
It had made me sad.
I kept my distance cause I really didn't wanna end up crying in public.
Barfin in a subway bag is hardcore >>
I wanted to ask you how you were feeling, and everything too it's just I don't know.
I felt like if I kept my distance and pretending I didn't care I could get away with lying to myself. It didn't work... I really never wanted to hut you I swear it on the life of J.C. If he could talk he could tell you how much I cried that day. I wish we could still be close I really miss talking to you on a daily basis. I still love you, and it hurts. I just don't know what to say. I don't even really have time to think about it lately with all the medicine in my system...and all the drinking too I guess... Idkk... I hope you have a nice Sunday I guess ?? I think today is Sunday? You shouldn't feel bad when I don't say goodbye, goodbye is forever. I'll just see you later I guess.



ps.. I saw the Dark Knight Rises on Saturday with everyone minus Jessie an Sara. It was an amazing movie like omg. I really wished you had come, even if you already saw it.


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