WaterAttire
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hey, im just on my friends pc for a bit. going to sleep soon. i miss a lot of people and with all my spare time without my pc i have had a long time to think. yea im a little lonely, but u know what. it really dosnt feel any different. no one talks to me or acknowledges i exists very often and im forgotten about a lot. its weird thou, ive also had time to think hard about removing someone, but in thinking, it was right to do it. she wasnt 'in' my life and so it made literally no difference when i made sure. also a lot of people have seemingly been trying to play me like im some sort of blind fool. its kinda sad i had to find out but oh well, just makes things easier really. i have a gf, a very beautiful, fit, sweet gf that wants to be with me more then life itself. thou ill admit her 'devotion' borderlines obsessive insanity at times. i kinda like it thou, she is the only girl that talks to me, has been the only one in a while, and the only loyal one o talk to me since even before i lost my computer. ive been avoiding facebook posts thou so i think a lot and say less to people. its a lonely life, but ive lived a very very lonely life for as long as time itself. i may not be as lonely as others, i wont make outages clames that i am more-so alone then anyone, but a lot of people wouldnt be able to handle being lonely by something that isnt of there own choice. i am ok with it as long as i have my own thing to do, i just wish for once i could have a job if only to preoccupy my time. oh well. one thing, i found out someone i thought i was close to lied to me like they always do. but oh well. im not going to be made a fool of like that. lucky for me its been so long i dont really remember much since i tried hard 2 purposely forget and its been so long. anyway, im still alive and still will never give u easy. have a night day yall.