Do we make things awkward ourselves or does it just happen on its own? I have no idea, but I think that I put myself in that position. It's so werid though. Knowing your ex has a new girlfriend, but you've had a new boyfriend for five months. I don't know whatI'm even trying to say. Yeah I still have feelings for him, but I mean, how do you lose thoughs feelings for your ex, your first true love? How can you lose thoughs feelings you have for him, and focus all of your attention on your current relationship? I love my boyfriend, but I can't shake the feelings I still have for my ex, and I don't think I ever will. Bad thing is that I know he's gonna read this, but if he does, he does. If he doesn't, he doesn't. It's something that I need to get off my chest, so if he wants to knw about it he can. I just don't want to get hurt anymore, and believe me, if my ex has any part of me getting hurt it's like .01%.
On another note, not doing The Voice or American Idol cause my parents don't want me to make a fool out of myself, which is stupid because that's who I am. I love to make people happy and smile and laugh. So hopefully either next year or after I graduate. We shall see how that all goes. Work's going okay. Gonna take a month off to get ready for school though. Hope that goes well. So I guess I'll talk to all of you guys later. Peace out. Love you guys!!
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